Music & Memories

I have pulled up Jennifer Knapp’s album, Lay it Down in iTunes. This has always been one of my favorite CDs, but this afternoon I realize it has an even greater place in my heart now. It’s the CD I played during the difficult hours of my labor with Micah, and listening to the songs I realize I will never hear these the same way again. Instantly I am taken back into that delivery room, swaying through the pain with my arms wrapped around my husband’s neck. He is whispering in my ear. “You’re doing such a good job, honey.” I hear the monitors beeping quietly in the background. I take a deep breath before the next contraction, and sink farther into my husband’s chest while he squeezes my shoulder at my request. The harder he squeezes, the less I notice the intense pressure of the contraction and the calmer I feel. At the peak of the contraction, I’m singing…

Seeing as I found a rock in my pocket
Seeing as I found a glitch in my soul
Make believe won’t hide the truth
When judgment falls and it falls on you
Bend a knee my friend, bend a knee
Lay It Down say it’s all my fault, all my fault
Say I believe, I believe Lay it down
This the hour of my healing, of my healing, yeah
Pride can break a man right down from iron
Twist him ’round ’round and tatter up a soul
Handprint of God on the small of my back
My second chance, my second chance
I’ll bend a knee my friend, I’ll bend a knee
Lay It Down say it’s all my fault, all my fault
Say I believe, I believe
Lay it down
This the hour of my healing, of my healing, yeah
My heart, my heart redeemed
If it pleases You Love
If it pleases You Love
If it pleases You Love
Lay It Down say it’s all my fault, all my fault
Say I believe, I believe Lay it down
This the hour of my healing, of my healing, yeah


Singing a song about humility and salvation in a moment of such instensity…. the lyrics become real. And aside from that, every time I hear Jennifer Knapp now, my heart swells at the thought of the day I met my son for the first time.

Are there any songs that bring back such strong memories for you?

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